It never ends...

Life is so frustrating.

First, I'd like to address my love life... or lack thereof. I think I'm over that guy. There is still physical attraction between us, but we've used and abused one another so much - and there are so many reasons why we would be TERRIBLE together - that I'm just not even concerned about it anymore. I care about him deeply, but his arrogance and selfishness are really a turn off for me.

So... onto the rest of my life. Which there is more than plenty of. I have a child that won't go to sleep, laundry to put away, Christmas cards to order and send out (get this... I ran out!), dishes to do, soiled clothing to pre-treat, dinner to eat at some point tonight, a car that has 500 dollars worth of damage that I have to take care of, a guy with no insurance I need to track down, 500 dollars in medical bills that I have to figure out how to pay, bottles to sanitize, a shower to take, milk to pump, presents to wrap, grocery shopping to do, chutney to make, an office to finish decorating... UGH! WILL IT EVER END?

All I want is someone to share the burden every once in awhile - someone to pick up a carton of milk on the way home... so I'm not balancing two gallons of milk, the baby, the diaper bag, the pump bag, and a basket of laundry on my way upstairs!

The thing is, when you are a single parent, on top of all else you have to take care of, no matter how much money you make - it's never enough. When you are a single parent you always worry about money. College funds, savings, emergency funds, diapers, baby food, clothing (they need so much clothing!)... it's never enough when you're a single parent.