Almost two years later... an update.

Today I'm a married mom of two. D is 2 1/2, and C is 12 weeks old. A year ago, my husband and I decided to add to our family. We found out we were expecting C a year to the day that we met. Superbowl Sunday. Yes... that last blog that I posted as a single mom...? That was my now husband. I was terrified to continue blogging because I didn't want to jinx it. We married after a short 9 months, and added to our family right away. We are still in the same small town, but now there is a burning desire in our hearts to move back east. Well, B wants to move back east. I want to move. Anywhere. Period.

I should add... this time is much harder for me. Two years is a long time, and I've grown up a lot. There are things I wrote before that embarass me now. Some of it is my language, some of it is the way that I talked about people... especially people I barely knew. Some of it is the choices that I made. When I was writing before I had nothing to lose. I didn't care if anyone liked me. I liked myself, and that was good enough. Now I have the feelings of my husband to consider, I would never want to embarass B. I also have his family to consider. I adore them all, and desperately wish for a closer relationship with my sisters in law (but I'm not good at that sort of thing), but now I worry about what they will think of me. My interactions with them have been brief, and I want nothing more for them to think that I am worthy of their family.

However, there is no point to blogging if it is full of lies. I hate cryptic blogs that hint at something but don't tell the full story. I don't like to read blogs and know that the author is painting themselves in fairy light. If you are going to put it out there, you should probably just be honest about it. If you're not, people are going to see through you. So... I'll be honest. To the best of my ability. If I can't be, then I won't write about it. I won't hint at it.

So, to my lovely readers... Welcome back. :)