The beginning...

Most of the people this is written for won't be reading this for a few more months yet. So, I'm going to include a little background data here. Mainly how I found out about the pregnancy, etc. Before I begin, I'm going to answer a few questions, questions I know everyone in my family will be asking.

First thing everyone is going to want to know is "Who's the father?" He he, well... for now that's my secret. I will say this, he is someone I've been involved with for awhile now (I can just hear the question marks appear over heads - no one even knew I was involved!) and someone I love very much.

The next question, at least in my parents minds, "are you going to get married?" No. Or at least not because of this. If it is something that we decide to do at some point down the road, then yay! Pressuring us isn't going to result in a desired outcome, so please respect our decision and don't try to force your beliefs on us.

"When did you find out?" I found out November 18th, and my last period was 13 October. Approximate date of arrival - late July.

"Are you going to keep the baby?" If I make it to term, then yes, I have full intentions of keeping the baby.

"Is the father going to be involved?" Yes, the father intends to be involved. He really is an amazing guy, and I'm a very lucky girl. :)

"Why weren't you using protection?" Um, we were. I was on the pill, and I took it regularly so as to maintain clearer skin and more regular periods. For those of you that don't know (as there are many) I was also informed (while I was married) that I would require medical intervention in order to conceive. This was a surprise on all counts.

"Why were you engaging in pre-marital sex to begin with!?!" I have no good answer for this. Or, at least no answer that would satisfy those asking. I could apologize for my behavior, but honestly I'm not ashamed of it. What I do apologize for is for subjecting my parents to having to provide an explanation for my behavior. This will not go over well in their circles, and (for my parents) I'm truly very sorry if I have disappointed you, or let you down in anyway.

Ok... So, the conception story:

Ha ha, J/K I'm not going to subject you to that - instead, the "How I found out" story.

I had been hormonal and emotional for several days. I figured I was going to have one hell of a period. My boobs hurt, I was crampy, I had horrid gas (which is very uncomfortable when you don't release it in public!), and I had a stuffy nose every morning when i woke up. I was feeling pretty cruddy, but the worst part was how emotional and insecure I was feeling. (Yes, I'm playing the hormone cards for those couple days! Lol) Anyway, my SO (significant other) jokingly asked if I was pregnant. I blew him off, but the gears started turning in my head... What if I was pregnant?!? Remembering all the times before that I had made a fool of myself, when i was married, and thought I might be - I blew it off in my head. It wasn't possible, it was silly. I was just going to get myself worked up.

About five days later I still had not started my period. I thought it was curious, but couldn't remember the exact day I had started the month before. I got online and looked it up... Lo and behold, I was five days late. This isn't entirely unusual for me, I usually start two to three days before or after the month before, but five days was stretching it a little far. Plus, all of my cramping had been gaseous, located in my abdomen, not vaginal. (Please note, In the header it states this blog isn't always pretty... but it is always honest!) I was very nervous. My SO was out working, so when he got back, at about 4 am, I told him about my suspicions. A little bit later that morning I pee'd on a stick... and for the very first time there were two lines, changing right before my very eyes. As soon as the liquid hit the stick. There was no waiting for a positive. It was POSITIVE. The first thing I did was tell SO that it was positive, and knowing me as well as he does, he lovingly told me that it was ok, because he wasn't going anywhere. Then he went back to sleep! Lol (It was about 6 am at this point and he had just gone to bed!) I had to go to work, so I distractedly went about my duties for the rest of the day.

That's it. That's the story. Sorry if you were expecting a little more to it, but that's all there is.

I will add this, SO has been very sweet and supportive about this pregnancy so far. He's the one who brought up baby names (lol, which I'm sure he's regretting, as I've driven him nuts with it at this point!) , and when I worry about things he reminds me that we have quite awhile yet before we have to start doing anything about it. He's loving, mature, responsible. I'm lucky to have had this surprise with someone like him, and not with any of the men in my past. He may not be happy about it, but hopefully that's something that comes in time. Honestly, I don't know if I'm happy about it yet. I have my moments where I'm pleased, and I have my moments where I feel like OMG! What have I done?!? I'm sure this will all work itself out in time. Anyway, feel free to tag along on our surprise journey.